They say there are lies that come in different sizes. There are big lies and small, white lies and tall tales, baby lies and grown up lies. Then there are big Fat ones and itty bitty ones. How did we comes to give such attributes to something so black and white? I’m not really sure but I would like to puzzle it out here somewhat.

Deception is deception. That’s the first thing. Facts can be used to obscure the truth, in fact, I think that only facts are mostly used for that, in other words, most of the time factual material is what the big lie is made up of. I mean to say that big and Fat ones aren’t “pure” lies always, though That’s what the general parlance would point to. A big Fat lie is normally seen as a fact that is obviously wrong and would stand out in a crowd. That is, the lie is the “creepy perp” who sticks out in the line up, the “obvious” one, the one who can’t hide. But more often, even most often, I think, the biggest and fattest of lies are the deceptive maneuvers which are built up over time. And so-called facts are the building blocks upon which these are based.

These facts are isolated little bits of info or let’s call them intel, which are woven together into a blanket of subversion. That blanket becomes so thick over time, that any individual person is hard pressed to dismantle that web in order to get to the bottom of the story and find out the simple truth of the matter. And, not to get ahead of myself, but the Truth is always pretty simple. I think that is why we call this process “dis-cover-y” because the work of getting to the bottom of the matter involves simply a method of uncovering the “real deal” layer by layer by layer.

This disCover process is made up of a few steps which, like when knitting a scarf or a sweater, are repeated at intervals in order to bring out a recognizable pattern. For example, knit two, perl two, rinse and repeat. This is how we get something useful out of the chaos which normally inhabits our befuddled brain.

Now, above I postulated the “fact” that the most damaging or the biggest lies are often or even mostly made up of small “truths”. So how is this possible? Most everyone reading this will know the answer I’m about to reveal, but do not dismay if you don’t get my drift. It wouldn’t be your fault at all. I’d have to say it would be quite normal not to see where I am going with this whole tirade about these two poor abused words of the English Language. So, how is it actually possible to deceive using pure facts? Easy. You just leave out little essential parts of the story or you put them together in such a way as to convey a wrong impression. That’s it.

Or you tell the whole story, but you make sure that a part of the story lands on this side of the fence and the other parts land in other areas. You “dissect” the truth as it were, and that makes it unrecognizable. Voilá, a big Fat lie is born. Let’s call it the art of deception. Too bad for the poor little three letter word “art” here. Now you carry the signs and the stigma of becoming a 4-letter word, sorry for you.

That is the truth about lies. Now I want to tell a few things people generally don’t understand about the Truth. This should come in handy if you feel confused in your daily life and you really really Really want to get to the bottom of it.

The lie that is so often told about the Truth, is actually a half-truth and goes as follows: “You shall know the truth, and the truth shall set you free”. The other half of this, the flip side of the coin is that “The truth always hurts”. Now, what is the problem here? Someone offered you the truth on a silver platter, but, and this is a huge BUT, “but”, they tell you, “there is a price tag” on this truth, you can get it, but first you must pay for it. And the price is Pain. “You can have the truth, after which you will be free, but it’s gonna cost ya”. At this stage of the bargain, most people just throw up their hands and say, I already have too much pain and cannot afford to take on any more. I guess I don’t want the truth then, it’s gonna kill me.

The big lie is that the pain of NOT knowing is what is doing the damage. It’s the pain of living under the blanket of the subversive reality, in the shadow world of the illusion that is your “story”. Those of you who are philosophy aficionados are most welcome to pontificate in the comments here. You know who you are. Go right ahead. Be my guest. Yes, this is the death by a thousand cuts. Now you have thought to yourself that you might like to know the real truth, but you feel that the pain of it would send you over the edge and I will tell you that it very well could. But there are things that can protect you from falling off the edge of this, our funny flat earth, or if you are a globist, this is the gravity that will keep you nailed down to our spinning blue planet, roaming endlessly through space. That glue is connection.

Now, don’t be frustrated. Let me explain. What’do I mean by connection? By connection I mean connection. ANY connection. There is just one problem here. And I have a sneaking suspicion that it is very simply the FACT that we do suspect already, we feel, somehow we know, that if and when we ever do really connect, this will mean that the dog and pony show will suddenly end and we’ll need a new job and a new life… and since that space has been obliterated in our perception of the world, we opt to continue receiving the tiny tiny cuts of our “daily lives”. Hence we shun away from connecting, and we go back to live in the shadow world again.

But there is a bright spot here. If we are very perceptive and open, and this comes as a result of the fact that we FINALLY CONCLUDE that we cannot live if we don’t get to the truth, so, finally, if we really want to see it, we will notice that there is something standing in the way of knowing the truth and that is shielding us from the connection. And the words here are agency and media. Two 3-syllable words, which mean to say that we are blind to the truth by virtue of being cut off from the very connective nature of our human psyche.

The first thing people used to say when there would be a problem was to pray. Let us pray. Please pray. Prayer is a way of connecting, yes, but oddly, it doesn’t work somehow. It’s broken, you see. It doesn’t work because this thing is in the way. There is an agent, and it’s a double agent. There is one on the outside and one on the inside, too. And the one on the inside is just a mirror of the one on the outside and that agent is called religion. It is an agent. And the belief system in your head is a reflection. This thing tells you to pray this or pray that way, or to say this or that thing, to believe this or that about a concept called God. In fact you can’t believe a thing, but you can only ever experience a thing through connection. And that connection has to be unmediated, that is connection. If there is an agent in the middle, which can be put in and taken out then it’s not connection. It’s mediation. Means you are only able to connect when the agent or medium is available. If the agent is not there, you are SOL. The pastor has no time, the church is not open, you have no church, etc. Now you can’t pray.

Wait, you say, but I can pray. No, you believe something but you are not in communion with it because your feeling for yourself has been interrupted. You have been violated. You have been assigned this agent whose job it is to make sure that you do not connect on your own, without their permission. That is the church, the great religion, which is in fact a deception. The deception is that you need the agent in order for you to feel ‘you’. You don’t need it, but we are so conditioned to need it that we rebel. We are so invested in the lie that we will fight tooth and nail to keep it the way it has been established. What do we need? We need to feel and for that we need nature. Inner and outer nature. But we can’t just go and do whatever we want. No. Nature includes the others. We are not alone here. And that is the other connection we need. We need Inner and outer connection. And it is this gentle and loving connection which saves us. We connect to others without violation. With respect. With feeling. How do they feel? How do we feel? And this connection is without a medium because it happens through feeling.

We connect to the other by feeling our own self. It’s not about us or them. They are not objects and so are we not objects. We connect through our inner feeling and that connection builds a fabric of society. This fabric of society is not about using others, it is about respecting our own selves and doing the necessary. Now I am afraid I have gotten very abstract here.

The truth is quite simple when we remain in connection. It becomes hard when we are pulled out of our feeling into the degraded thinking mind and the thought constructs become a medium or agent to the process, effectively causing the process to come to an abrupt halt. We lose connection and the mind becomes overwhelmed. This is because the mind is being called upon to perform a duty foreign to its very nature. We cannot be guided by the mind. Only feeling can guide us well. Feeling then becomes frustrated. And insult is heaped upon injury. All because the system has become polluted through an outside agent, which then becomes internalized. And this injurious movement repeats itself over and over again.

But what is the solution then? The solution is quite simple. Or it would be, if we were to come to know the nature of the chain that binds us to the repeating cycle of injury and defeat. The solution is to reject and to connect. Reject the agent and connect to each other. And here I mean to reject the medium, or media and you can put all the alphabets in here. As in the ” don’t be evil” companies. Because they are. Evil. All the zoom and vroom and abc cbc nbc cbs and so on and so forth. Get rid of all that and connect. Sit down together and share a story a song a meal. Old fashioned togetherness. Because now we have all these robots telling us that they need to be in the middle. But they don’t, and we must not let them. We have to turn it around. And we can.

That is when we will suddenly uncover the truth, about Truth. And that is, that it is knowable. That it is easy to know. It was right there all along. The problem humans are facing right now stands on two legs: confusion and isolation. Knock down the right or the left. Better to start on the right. Knock down isolation. Get together. And the way to do that is to agree to disagree but to stay in touch. Reach out to those with whom you have lost touch. We lose touch. Touch is feeling. We have to feel through connecting to each other. My mother always used to say, we don’t discuss politics or religion. Because this divides. And where does that live? In the mind. We have to return to our feeling selves. And after that the confusion will dissipate naturally. Because connecting to each other has a way of connecting the dots for us. In many ways. We learn from each other. And we are not learning the little isolated facts and the do’s and the don’t’s from each other. We are learning to feel again our selves. By being who we are, together and apart. Now when we again begin to feel our selves and to trust this feeling, we then can be guided by an inner principle and compass which is connected fully to nature. And I don’t mean “Do whatever you like”. No, that goes against our feeling in fact. Because when we feel through this process of knowing, it is very clear to us what is right and what is wrong. We know instantly what to do and what to avoid. We are not confused, because we are connected to our feeling self, to our gut. We know that this hurts and this other thing feels right. We know instantly and we trust that.

Reject the dastardly alphabets and come out of the isolation. Slowly slowly confusion will abate and you will know. You will just know. In the beginning it’s hard. You have to swim against the tide. You have to fight your own urge to go back to the old habit of deferring to the agents, of living shielded always by the medium, buffered by a filter. Once you develop a taste for it, that bitter pill of truth turns out to be, if not sweet, at least worth dying for because it allowed you to live. Your life, to be in life, in love with it. Deception always enters through the filter of the mind. Truth is always there right in front of us but we turn and take the middle path of agency. And then we end up on the weeds and we wonder why.

Before we are thinking beings we are knowing and feeling ones. And now I have the feeling that I have bogged this down.

I wrote the above piece sitting in Flagstaff, AZ some weeks ago. It may have been more, it may have been less time. Now it seems like months, but I know it wasn’t that long ago.

I write, but I don’t edit. I just keep going. I remember writing this piece and there was a feeling of concepts opening up and they would be flowing out in different directions. Just like the bifurcation of a stream. The stream of thought was taking multiple directions but it was not possible to de-lineate. Dialog, being linear, had to stay on “track”. And so, the full spectrum, the whole idea, which is more like a holograph than a photograph, cannot be really inspected. The whole point is that the Truth is multi-linear, because it is experienced and experiences defy description. You have to be inside of them. You cannot look at them from the outside, because, when it comes to experience, though we have the five senses, with regards to experiences all these senses are useless to describe the whole picture, the “holograph”. It is truly like that old analogy of the blind men and the elephant. One man said, the elephant is like a snake, because he was holding the trunk. Another said, the elephant is like a tree, because he was standing next to the leg, and so on.

And so, I was trying to describe something so multi-faceted that it was eluding my every attempt. This is the very problem we face, when we live primarily in sensory space. When we connect with outer things, we “experience” them through color, tone, flavor etc. But there is a unity, a wholeness we cannot experience when we are in the thinking mind. We have to go INTO the thing, become one with it and finally BECOME IT. Then and only then do we really begin to know it. We can’t really know anything about that entity up until that moment, because, living through the senses and the mind, we are doomed to reside OUTSIDE. We will never enter into the inner tabernacle, the inner sanctum. We have to become it and experience ourselves AS IT, and then we know it. That is, we experience it only then when we cannot tell the difference between us and the thing itself. We experience it when we forget who we think we are. We experience it when we dive deep away from the sensual information towards a feeling which, again, I am helpless to describe. Focusing on the senses leads us away from the object and into our own mind. It creates a barrier between us and this thing, because this other thing has its own consciousness. We cannot connect to it in order to know it because we have become distracted by its attributes. And this always leads away from the innate consciousness to the storage box which is called mind or memory. That kills it. It becomes 2d. What to speak of 3d, life is so multi-dimensional that it’s really like a fractal.

Have you ever seen a fractal? There was a mathematician in France. He was French with a German name. Mandelbrot. I read that they were trying to figure out how to accurately measure the coastline of a country. Say, we want to know the most accurate measurement of the coastline of England. How to measure it. The problem is, as the coastline is measured more and more accurately, it’s measurement grows and grows and expands. the number of vectors increases infinitely and the length of the coastline eventually becomes infinite. There is no way to do it. You cannot “accurately” measure the coastline. Ever. It is always a guess, always approximate. The more you strive to do it perfectly, the more you “mess” it up.

That is the problem with Truth. You can only live it and experience it. You cannot tell it. But living and experiencing Truth DOES lead to an integral life of feeling and respect. In the above diatribe I was trying to approach the problem from a dual perspective. There is truth and there is untruth. The reality is, there is only Truth. But, and it is a huge “but”. But, you have to experience it and live it, you cannot profess to know and tell it. It is an elusive concept when you try to shrink it into language that fits neatly in the mind of a single person. Perhaps trying to hold truth in the collective mind would go further to serve the broader truth. Then we must struggle to break the control of the media INDEED, of it’s stranglehold on our sensual perceptions.

I could go on and on. But I think I would rather get back to my experience.

4/25/22 9:55 am EDT, Franke Park, amphitheater, Fort Wayne, Indiana USA