What was the true Red Pill: I know that this is the Meme that is Hated the Most by the PTB (powers that be). The RED PILL. I was red-pilled really hard. After months of surfing the net, surfing videos… at first I was just looking at videos at night trying to find something to distract myself from my predicament.

I had left the “group” and before I left I had been told repeatedly, it had become a mantra of my handler, that I would be homeless if and when I ever left them. And, I can now say, it was not only a mantra, it was a ‘promise’. And they did plenty to make good on that promise.

I used to surf vids etc at night sometimes for hours just to find a way to decompress from the pressure of the constant threat of being thrown out onto the street. At first I just watched random videos. I liked to watch videos of kittens, cats, dog, puppies. I thought this was innocuous, but now it gives me the creeps. These videos are a little too ubiquitous. Perhaps it’s only the ‘algorithm’ trying to sync up to my previous ‘pet junky status’. Otherwise I don’t know why there should be so many of these types of videos and such little information about what is truly going on. That’s why I don’t watch them anymore that much. Either way it give me the willies.

I hated the amount of time I was spending in these one minute or less vids. But I could not stop and I started to see things, just little things would pop up. Finally at some point I got on an alternative channel and one night I was looking at a face, a picture that was changing transparency overlaid on top of another photo and it was the same face. One image was on top, the other underneath, and it was two faces ostensibly. One of the pictures was of the face of a notorious dictator. I would wager, there is no one in the entire world, perhaps with the exception of some of the most remote and uncivilized places on earth, who has never heard of this criminal. These two photos were laid atop each other and the voice in the audio was saying, these are the same person. The transparency kept changing so that I could see that both men had exactly the same features, it was undeniable.

The second picture, the one at the bottom was ostensibly again of another person, a Hollywood celebrity. Again, I can say that except for in the most remote parts of the earth, probably every person on the planet knows this man. I don’t think there is anywhere where this man is not known and loved. The two photographs were undeniably similar, exactly the same actually. The differences were very slight, just a mustache was different on one and the other had bushier eyebrows, things like this, hair color perhaps. And then the host went on to show the pictures of the wives of the two men and again it seemed to be very similar, perhaps the same person. Then he showed the homes of the two men, and how they were the same and he went on to show other proofs.

At first, while I watched the video I couldn’t decipher what I was looking at. I couldn’t fathom what the host was describing. It had started off showing the houses, the homes of the two men respectively, and how one of the two pictures had been flipped horizontally and vertically to hide the fact that it was the same domicile. It made no sense, but then as the video went along, I could grasp finally that I was being told that history had been faked. Not just a little history, a lot of history. Strange. My mother used to always quote to me what this man had supposedly said, “He said: ‘If you are going to tell a lie, make it a huge lie; and tell it over and over and over again.'” I grew up with these words in my ears. I can’t remember why my mother would have said that. She never gave the impression that she was a liar. But on the 2nd of February of this year when I found out that the man I had called “Daddy” my whole life was very probably not my father, it started to make a little more sense to me.

The thing is: I have been around the world in several different countries and have spoken to many different types of people and have lived in different cultures. As it started to sink in about the writers of history and who they might be, I began to think of the history of deception, what very little I had heard of it. I had gone to Europe and even to Russia during the years immediately preceding perestroika, and I had met people there who had told me of things that I had never heard of before. One of these things was the “Bohemian Villages”. What the person actually told me was that when Richard Nixon had visited “Leningrad” (now St. Petersburg) in the 70s, people had been contracted, workers, who would paint buildings in the city. But these buildings were not to be fully painted and restored. Indeed not even the whole city or a portion of it was to be fixed up. Only along a certain route of travel was any work to be done; buildings to be painted and cleaned and only on the bottom two floors. If the building was four stories high, only from the ground floor up to the second floor was painted, and only along the parade route of the limousines in which the foreign dignitaries were riding, since, reclining in the back seats of the limos, they would not be likely to see above the second floor of any building.

I say Bohemian Villages, because that was a saying in German, “Boehmesche Doerfer”. What I have kept in memory is It was said that if the Russian czar was to become restless to see how the people were faring on the land he would command his subordinates that he should ride in a carriage and be taken into the villages to visit his people. Then, and this was most likely at least in good part in the purview of the military men to arrange, a group of carpenters, painters, set designers and actors would be sent out ahead of the czar’s entourage in order to build, furnish and people ‘sets’, whole towns and villages along a specific route that was to be taken during the king’s trip. The monarch would then be driven along this specific route, not deviating from it in the least according the pre-planned route, and he would see his “people” and how they were flourishing, all happy and fine, with plenty of food and livestock, clothing etc. The buildings would be nothing more than storefronts propped up on planks at the back. Perhaps there would even be little dramas enacted for him along the way in order to assure him that whatever reports he had been receiving of ill-doings or problems were without substance. Reassured that he had done everything in his power for his populace, the king would return to his castle, fully satisfied that everything was okay. So, there in my mind, the seed of early “shadow government”.

Just now I was looking in a search engine for the term “Bohemian Villages” and I can find nothing. Apparently this has been turned into the name of a video game. How convenient. Now I am looking to see if I can find the source of this story that I have in memory, but I have not found it. I did find that this is not something that originated in Russia, at least the German term, but perhaps came out of the Habsburg Monarchy, centered around the current Czech Republic. Apparently the saying comes in many different flavors, there are “Spanish Villages” and other types also. But I am wondering how did I come to think of Bohemian Villages in this way. What they are saying in the search engines is that this is simply a way of expressing, “I don’t know much about this”, that it is referring to the fact that the names of so many Bohemian Villages all sounded similar to each other and that they were not easy to pronounce. Hence, the meaning of this idiom should be more closely related to “that’s Greek to me” than to the concept that I have had of it. But this seems strange. Where did I pick up this idea?

Well, let me not get bogged down in that story. I’ll let it stand, this is what I was thinking about when I saw the picture of the dictator/actor and I started to guess that history just might not be what it’s cracked up to be. After all, how hard can it be to the pull the wool over the eyes of generations of people if an elite group control the press, the media, in whatever form that might be? Even when I was coming of age back in the 70s there was constant talk of media being a monopoly with Rupert Murdoch buying up so many newspapers and television broadcasting corporations all over the world. Digging around lately into this type of thing I came upon reports somewhere that the the three networks, ABC, NBC and CBS were all owned by related people if you go into whichever big banking institutions were involved. Then if you see that the commercial sponsors are all the same, it doesn’t really matter anyway who might own the actual corporation, as the piper calls the tune. Finally, when it comes down to it, one corporate entity, run by one man, seems to own 10% of the GDP of the entire world. So, this guy and his cronies have their fingers in virtually every pie. I think, and eventually, at least conceptually, I would like to prove that this has always been so. It has always been the same entity. Just think about re-litigious organizations, the HRE and the CC. Then it becomes abundantly clear, doesn’t it?

I remember being with my parents briefly in their Florida home back in the mid 80s. I was then living in NYC and working in a firm that did publishing for a well known Wall St firm. My father was ensconced in his easy chair with the remote in his hand watching his daily programs and my mother wandered in from the kitchen where she had been preparing some food, in an apron with a kitchen towel in hand. She stood next to my ‘father’ as they watched some TV news broadcaster telling about a report that had been seen on “Pravda” (Truth). I don’t remember what was going on and what the Russians were saying. It was a short little blurb that lasted only a few seconds, after which my mother proclaimed “and they (the Russian propagandists) will tell them (the Russian populace) only what they want them to know” and returned then to the kitchen to finish cooking the dinner. I didn’t say anything, but even then I was WellAware that our own news media was little more than a propaganda machine for the masses and that WeThePeople knew virtually nothing about what went on ‘behind the scenes’ in our own country or anywhere for that matter (and even this little idiom is very telling here, ‘BehindTheScenes’ indeed).

At this point many people could be feeling very uncomfortable and I have to say, if that is the case, then, if you have not already done so, by all means, please click away. What is coming next is not for those who are satisfied with the ‘history’ which has been fed to them as the God’s Truth. We have all heard in the past at some point or other that “history is written by the victors” but after seeing what I have seen in my life up to now I think it is better to say that “the victors don’t write history, they invent it and then let their stooges write about it.” In the meantime, since this latest “red-pill-moment” I have found so much more evidence, that I am often overwhelmed with this sensation of a new reality overtaking me, and that my life as I thought I knew it never actually existed, somewhat akin to Neo in TheMatrix. At first it was a shock, and I was fully taken up with researching it and trying to figure out how deep is the “rabbit hole” here. The the dark truth sort of sets in, only to be disrupted by newer and deeper revelations. On and on it goes until at some point I throw up my hands and ask myself “can I know anything for sure about the world or this time?” to which I must respond, “no, I cannot”.

I continue to say over and over again, “you shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free.” Why? because after you see the Truth, it just appears in front of your nose over and over, multiple times a day, many times an hour, you cannot escape it. It’s really like those dot pictures from back in the 80s and 90s that were so popular. There were books printed with these pictures. You had to stare at them for a long time and suddenly the neurons in the brain would make sense of the pattern and unconsciously suddenly you would just “see” whatever was in there. And afterwards for as long as the page was open and you looked at the picture, you would not be able to “unsee” the representation of whatever it might have been. Patterns develop over time during a life lived and things begin to make sense in light of the new information over time. This new perspective becomes the string that ties everything together. It becomes the red thread of the Minotaur’s cave. Ariadne gives Theseus a red ball of string for him to take into the labyrinth, so that after defeating the half-man/half-bull he can come out again with ease. In the case of perceived reality/history, things are never as they appear to be. Confusion is everywhere, but when the secrets are “aired out” one can get to the root of every twisted tale through this process. It becomes so obvious what kind of deceptions are afloat, because truly there is nothing new under the sun, and they become really quite easy to spot. Criminals usually don’t vary their MOs. They pick something that works and use it every time, until they are finally caught. I find that the case of world history is not different. The same swindle has been perpetrated over and over again and it is about to be finally uncovered. This generation will do it.

It is fantastic to me that people could be so gullible and easy to deceive. It is as if we are all very much like little children, either that or hypnotized and fully asleep. It is one or the other. And the PTB don’t want anyone to air out all the dirty laundry. No, because it is the same thing always over and over again and always has been. They have not changed their MO since the beginning of time. Once people start to catch on to such a bold and depraved deception, if and when that should come to light, and I believe it will very soon, it will become a tidal wave, unstoppable. All of official history is simply a house of cards waiting to be blown over. The only thing that is keeping it afloat is our manipulated perception of it. Seeing this video of the merging faces, that was somehow the key to unlock the door to the truth for me. I started to see this reality everywhere. It tied everything together for me. Everything made sense suddenly, because not only had this portion of history been faked, but these PTB were actively rewriting history on a daily basis. Everything was being rewritten all the time and I could see examples of this everywhere. In the grocery store I stopped in the magazine aisle and picked up an issue dedicated to this Hollywood personality who apparently had been an actor on a stage in another country for years and had remained undetected in that role. Talk about “all the world’s a stage”. There on page after page it was all very clear, the evidence was there, hidden in plain sight as it were. It was quite plausible, but the very fact that it is being done so openly would preclude its discovery. Anyone you tell about it will immediately block your number, even your oldest and best friends. You will immediately be declared insane, and the excommunication from society at large will be final. But once you see the picture, you cannot unsee it. You won’t find any smoking guns, I couldn’t, though they probably exist, but the thing was a done deal for me anyway. I just knew there was more than a little something to this theory.

Slowly I start to feel as if humanity had progressed very little since the middle ages. We are taught to believe that we are so great and that we are so technologically and socially advanced, so far superior to what we were in centuries past. But apparently we are all still ignorant serfs in many ways. Technology may have moved forward quite a bit, but we are still in the same type of mindset as before, still so dependent on re-litigions and our so-called ‘leaders’. The PTB have given us a form of education, to which we must adhere and pay homage, but the true education, which is, how to think for oneself and how to question what you see and hear remains very far from us. After having this revelation about the dictator/actor, I went about my life in a different way. The next thing that happened to rock my world and destroy my reality was the revelation about my true parentage; and after that I suddenly knew that I had been right about everything in my childhood, but people had forced me to put doubt upon my feelings and not to trust myself. Suddenly I knew that I had always been right and that I could really trust my feelings about whatever was going on around me. At least these became a more or less reliable barometer in reading the ‘room’. There was a confidence all at once, that I truly knew what was going on in my feelings, that whatever was missing would become apparent shortly, and that it was not dangerous to trust oneself, but that this would be much less dangerous than not to trust oneself.

At right about this time I was in the middle of a decision making process. And this was agonizing. I had to make up my mind whether or not to go to India. I mentioned in a previous post that I had been invited to go to India by one man. And he was supposedly my guru. I had considered him to be my guru for over 20 years. I had been invited previously, but it had not been possible to go. A lot of things had happened which I may explain later. This had posed problems for me which had been very difficult for me to solve, really impossible. I could not figure out what to do, whether to go or to stay.

I almost made up my mind to go twice. But then I stopped. At the end of it all I had to hang on to two things; two very important facts became clear to me: first, I could know nothing about the man that he had himself not told me. In other words, I could never know if this man who insisted that he was my guru was truly who he was telling me that he was, because every single piece of information I had about him had come through his own mouth only and had not been corroborated through any other source. The other thing that was bothering me was that it started to seem to me that he only ever made me afraid. Fear was the result of our every communication. Just about whenever he wrote to me it was to tell me something that would upset me. I started to pull back and observe at this point. I put off the decision as long as I could and just watched.

Again the next time he wrote, right there it was; he was injecting fear. I pulled back some more. There were other signs also that were red flags for me. I don’t want to go into it here; that is a story for another day. Suffice it to say, I found out that I could not trust this man. And that was a very painful discovery, because I had been invested in believing in him and his so-called mission for over two decades. I had lived my life according to his suggestions and ideas. Now I could not truly believe or trust any more. But still there was doubt. I was unsure of my conclusion. Maybe I was deluded. I still did not know if he was a real guru or not. Still there was a measure of doubt about whether or not I was making the right decision. Mostly I was still frightened by things he had said. His message was always, if you don’t do what I am telling you to do, You are f_cked. I decided finally that right there, that was enough to tell me to stay away from him. I felt, anyone who was really loving, who had my best interests at heart, would not do that. What would be the need to manipulate using fear always? It was just always present. There was always and only fear. It was never encouragement, no. If that man had been a true guru, would he be writing to me in ALL CAPS that “I AM YOUR GURU, BE SURE OF IT.”? I somehow didn’t think so.

But for weeks still I was not sure. The threats still carried weight for me. And this is natural. The thing you want the most in life, someone is promising it to you. You have been groomed for this. Your entire life makes no sense and this is by design. Then you find a person, a supposed teacher, and that person tells you, I can solve this for you. You just have to do what I tell you. And believe me, things he told me to do often had made no sense at all. I started to pray to God. I started to say, Please help me to know what to do. After that prayer, the next morning I woke up and there was a flash of something across my consciousness that allowed me to see that the person I had been blaming, the person I thought was mostly responsible for the dilemma up until this point was actually also a victim of this man. This woman, this Sinran, as I call her, she was not the one to blame, but actually she was also under his spell, I felt. The real culprit in this situation was this man, this Indian supposed guru in a white cloth.

Here I have to interrupt my story and start over again. The missing part of the tale is here. I had seen this video and there was a person telling me that these two people, a ruthless leader, a criminal, and a beloved Hollywood personality were one in the same entity, and that this person was an actor, an actor in both arenas. That is, we could not trust that he was really being himself in either case. Then I found out that the man I had considered to be my guru was probably also not genuine. I had deduced through his behavior, in that he was constantly threatening me with something bad happening, constantly threatening that I would never reach my spiritual goals in life, that he was always trying to make me afraid of something and this meant for me that I could not trust him. I found that this was manipulative and I could not fathom why he would do that if he were indeed a truly spiritual person.

The next thing was, however, that this man, this supposed guru was telling me that the person whom I had exposed to be a truly narcissistic abuser was the Supreme Divine Mother. I could not buy that, not at all. There was no way. She was purely an abusive person. She did not have my best interests at heart. That proved itself out many times after I left the group. I think the only way that I actually escaped from the group was because they did not really suspect that I would leave on my own or as soon as I did. Otherwise they would have cleared out my bank account before I was to leave. People generally did not leave of their own volition. Even though it was said that she never kicked anyone out, but there were reasons a person might want to leave and she didn’t want anyone to leave on their own free will. No narcissist wants that. They want to kick the person out and make them really suffer as much as possible. I know that anyone who reads this who was present at the time may disagree with this point, I don’t really care. I know that this is what they were preparing for me. They had already stolen papers from my room. I know that they did this, because these were the papers that I had guarded most carefully, and the day I left they were nowhere to be found. The only way that these didn’t go with me and that they were not immediately found when I asked for them (which I did several times during that period) is that they were purposely pilfered from my room some time before I left. There must have been a plan afoot to push me out in some way. And I know why the papers were taken. I don’t have to prove anything here either. This is simply my story. Let it be fiction if you want. I know what I experienced in that group.

Now, the thing about the dictatorial leader is that there was a passage of a spiritual book I read once where this man came to be mentioned. And the book dealt with certain happenings in the world at that time and the story went that a particular spiritual leader had traveled to meet that man in the subtle plane (not actually gone to see him but somehow had visited him out of body) and had had some influence on him. That man supposedly worshiped a spirit of light, a god of sorts who in actuality was a fallen angel or a devil one may say. This is how the story was portrayed. In this story, the spiritual leader had reproduced that sort of appearance in the subtle plane in front of this dictator and had so instructed him, pretending to be his god, that he was to take certain actions. These actions consequently had led to his loss of control and power and collapsed his plans for world domination. Hence, the spiritual leader I am speaking of had “saved” the world from this monster. This was the story, in any case. Now, you have to realize that many thousands of people read this literature and that this type of story adds to the mystique of this spiritual leader or saint, building up a legend around them, that they are so spiritually powerful etc. And who prints this legend? Why, it is printed by the printing companies and paper making industry etc. that was started by that very saint themself. How convenient.

I was thinking of this and wondering about it. It became like that ‘itch inside the brain’ which Morpheus mentions to Neo, because if that man were the same man as the beloved Hollywood personality, then what in the heck had really happened? How could it be that this spiritual leader all the way over in India had flown disembodied somewhere in the subtle plane to see that man? Did the saint fly to H-wood or to the battlefield in the foreign land? And how is it that this man had then “lost” the power and control due to the actions suggested to him by the so-called saint? Because the host of the original video (my red pill) was saying that the whole thing was a psyop and coordinated. In other words, the H-wood celeb playing this dictator was on both sides, which means that the US and the foreign country with which we were at war were being run by the same people. It didn’t add up then that there was any need for the saint to do that, and they should have known what was truly going on if they really had this sort of spiritual power to go into the subtle plane and see this leader. What COULD have added up would be that the so-called saint and the so-called dictator, as well as the so-called celebrity were all playing on the same team. That is when the penny dropped for me. That’s when a whole new line of thinking started to open up.

Then I started to think about these people. And my jaw just dropped. It was all right there.

My guru, so-called, whose name is Sri A, whom we have always called Swamiji (Lord) or Bhagavan (Great Lord/God), has said many things to me in the 23 years I have known him. One thing that sticks in my mind is when he said that “We know our heritage.” He was describing how it is that Indians are aware of their lineages. They know to which dynastic lines they belong. They are aware of their castes. They know which names belong to which bloodlines and so on. I don’t remember which context it was mentioned in, but it was somewhat recently that he said that. It seemed innocuous enough when he said it, but still somehow it didn’t really fit into the context of that talk. He was asking, “do you all know where you have come from? I know that you don’t know, but we DO know where we come from”. He was saying this like that. It was a kind of superiority thing. He was comparing Westerners to Indians. The meaning behind what he was saying was, “you bloody stupid Western people have no lineage, no heritage. You just breed like animals. We don’t. We know who we are and where we have come from.” Now remember, until recently, and even today. most marriages in India are arranged by not only the parents. Indian households are virtually always multi-generational. The grandparents are there and other family members, cousins, uncles etc. play a role in family decisions.

Then I was listening to a talk by a woman who was studying lineages in connection with the Illumin.. and she was discussing how all of these families come from Iranian stock according to her research. Then it sort of all started to click for me. She said that these were light-skinned peoples essentially, that they had often this recessive gene of red hair and blue eyes. So, the hair was light colored or ginger, and the eyes were blue or grey or green, I think she said. And then she mentioned that the bloodlines were very carefully curated and that it was a matrilineal system. That this is why we have not been able to directly see what is going on. Also they often breed outside of marriage, in so-called bastardizations, this she said speaking of the monarchies and PTB. She said that they are told who to breed with and that these people willingly acquiesce to this. And this is the way they have kept their lineages together and still kept them secret from us. They also regularly change their names, which is something us normalos rarely or never do.

Then I started to take a look at these Indian saints and it became clear to me what we are dealing with. In the first place, I am talking about Sri A. That man was born in Bengal of an “illustrious lineage”. So far, that is all I can find out about his lineage. They just declare it to have been illustrious, but they don’t say why. His father was said to have been an anglophile in the official version of the story. That is, the father loved England and the English and was more than likely loyal to the English crown. He supposedly and apparently did not like India or Indians. I would guess here that the father perhaps wasn’t Indian at all. And it is logical to assume that the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree. Why should we assume that the son would then love India and Indians? Why should he suddenly become a freedom fighter and proponent of home rule for India? (I am going to go ahead and dare to guess that the family was perhaps even Iranian. Who knows? From the amount of faking that has gone on and goes on on a daily basis in the world, I cannot even fathom as to whether the man even at all existed or not.) The son was sent along with two other brothers to England to be educated. He was educated in the traditional English way in preparatory schools and then at Cambridge and Oxford. During his time in England the boy and his brothers lived with a clergy member’s family. The official version of the story is steeped in rags-to-fame type of lore. The boys had had a difficult time of it and had gone without meals and were poorly housed and clothed while abroad. I say to this BS. This is the story that is ALWAYS trotted out, ie, we were soooo poor and downtrodden. Please. How on earth did he enjoy such an education in these elite institutions? Oh, I forgot, he was so brilliantly intelligent. Scholarships, sure, okay. The boy ended up learning several languages before returning to India at around 21 years of age. The languages included I think Greek, French, Latin, and a few others, seven or eight in all. When he returned to India, he had had to relearn his mother tongue of Bengali. And there were the tales of family tragedy. Plenty of that sort of thing. Anyone who knows anything about saints in India, you already know of whom I speak.

This man had one life that was supposedly devoted to the re-establishment of Indian home rule. But I am not sure that this was a sincere undertaking. Let us suppose that this is the official narrative but that the reality could have been other than this. I think there is a possibility that he was a shill, a plant, that he was groomed to infiltrate the home rule movement. He produced more than a little propaganda to this effect through is newspaper business. I believe they even printed those on their own. Eventually, there was a bombing and he was taken to jail and supposedly remained in jail for a year. During that time, again, I say, supposedly, he had a spiritual awakening, and again, supposedly, he was miraculously released from jail, though he should have swung from the gallows for insurrection. This sudden unexpected release was then attributed to some spiritual power or the intervention of God, whatever it may be. I think it might just have been a type of design of the PTB. I feel it was concocted BS in any case Who knows how much of the story is true? How can we confirm it or corroborate it? It’s a hundred or more years ago now and how much of the story even happened at all, we have no way of knowing.

Next there is the counterpart, the woman from France, who comes to India in search of this man, again, supposedly. And she has by this time been married twice and the man to whom she is currently married is a devil, a really bad person, a political figure apparently. Now, it was said that she had married him because she thought she could save him. People always felt a little funny about this little French lady. Why was she married so much and divorced so much and how is it that a supposedly enlightened spiritual person has this type of background? But wait. Then these two, the former freedom fighter, supposed, and the French divorcee from a Jewish elite family with a background in heavy occult groups move in together in the French-controlled area of India, supposedly because Sri A is still being sought or is still in danger from being captured by the Indian Government. And this may or may not have been true in some regards. I think that the sorts of plans and machinations I am alluding to probably would have taken place as a result of designs having come down from the very top, from the highest PTB elites. Perhaps very few people in the official Indian government actually even could have known of such a devious and twisted agenda.

And this is what I think could have happened. This is all pure conjecture, but it would fit the pattern so, here goes. I think that the British, after 250 years, knew that their hold on India was tenuous at best as at that time the Indians had had it with the Crown and were pushing hard for home rule. I think that they thought, okay then, if they want home rule, they shall have it, but on OUR terms. So, rather than waiting and watching and allowing it to happen or trying to stop it from happening, they decided, we will ourselves cause the insurrection and the secession from British rule. Then we choose the leaders, the freedom fighters or at least we infiltrate them heavily and then we can control how it happens. We can then continue to rule India under the guise of home rule.

Now, I don’t really care what anyone thinks about this. BUT IF IT HAD BEEN UP TO ME, THAT’S WHAT I WOULD HAVE DONE. I mean, would that not have been the smartest way to retain a hold on the Indian mainland? And how hard is it to understand this? Then, I don’t think that Gandhi was even real. I don’t think Sri A was real either. I don’t think that any of them were real, Nehru et al. I think they all played their parts. The point being, Sri A down in Pondicherry had also told that it would happen exactly on his own birthday and that this would prove that he was behind the whole thing and had been working towards this on the so-called subtle plane! So, that establishes him again as such a powerful spiritual person. This is how he faked being a saint. Beyond this, I do believe that the Sri A that is seen in the pictures of the young man, when he is at his post in Baroda, and the Sri A who is pictured as an old man who sits in his room in Pondy, writing supposedly for 12 hours a day and never leaving that room, these are two different persons. I believe it. I always looked at them and could see no similarity. I just always had this feeling like, is that really the same guy? Even when I was taken up with the whole illusion. That is also a thing, they say that “look, his skin was so so dark at the beginning of his life and look at him at the end, he is so light skinned”. And they use this to say that he “evolved” and become more en”light”ened etc. that he had “transformed physically”. Preposterous.

And then there is the fact that very few photographs were ever taken of him. Again, how convenient, and we have seen this tactic elsewhere in these psyops. Yes, I think the whole thing is made up. That man was never a saint, and probably he didn’t really even spend that much time in Pondy. Who knows? Did he even exist as such, or was the whole thing staged? Was that an actor? Were those pictures even real? Supposedly, for 26 years he never set foot outside his room except for two times during the year. There will be these witnesses who will say this and that happened, or that this and that person was his constant servant etc. Who cares? How can we know that this really happened? I am saying there are precedents for this type of practiced mass deception, and there are things that are very close to patterns I am seeing in other areas, and I want to look at this carefully and not just buy into the established narrative like a sheeple.

Now let us talk of the woman who accompanied him supposedly for so many years. She was born of Jewish parents. She came from France. Her parents were Turkish. She was herself light-skinned. They were well connected and well to do. Before she went to India she was an occultist. It is said that she learned occult sciences from a man who called himself Max Theon (the Great God), and his wife. This man was also Jewish. Not that I have anything against Jews, but it does seem that this ethnic group is a bit over represented in the Illuminnti legends. Next, what was she doing in Japan? There are so many masonic temples and connections in Japan. This needs to be researched. Then there is the little thing of the symbol she developed for Sri A. This is like a mashup between the 6 pointed star of David and the Sat nic 6 pointed star, with a box in the middle which is a symbol of slavery for the sa=tanic occultists, I have been told. Then, to me it is so convenient that these two persons promptly declare each other to be divine beings. No one else has to corroborate. Mother just tells everyone that “I never experienced so much silence” in the presence of another person, etc. and so on. And this establishes Sri A as a bona fide saint, then Sri A turns around and declares the woman to be a saint, “The Mother” and writes a book about her. Voila, we have a new religion! Huzzah!

For me, it is just too too convenient. Just too lucky. I am researching this Great God character and have found that he belonged to a group known as the O.T.O. Look that up. I have found that a lot of information on him is not available. It has perhaps been scrubbed from the internet already. The OTO is there though. You can say that they are purely sat0nic from the perspective that the law they follow can be summed up in the following words. “Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law.” In other words, anything goes. The name of the group that the GG (great god) started was the Cosmic Society. And I am trying to find out what he taught. I am willing to bet almost anything that the supposed Sri A, if he existed at all as a single individual or not, was not an original thinker. Most of “his” writings have been kept secret until now in any case. How convenient that! I’ve seen references that his writings were influenced by such movements as the Cosmic Soc.

We are always taught to think and believe as if these are spiritual groups and things. We have to start to get clear about this, that these are, have always been, or certainly have morphed into *mili_ry Psy0ps*. Think! How long have we had the m)litary? How long have we had these PTBs? What is their highest objective? We always have believed (as per Nineteen 84 lore) that it’s about this country vs that country and so on. NO. It is about the established PTB and their cattle, their possessions. The whole thing has been directed at US. Like Pogo said, we have met the enemy and it is us.

Then there is all the bruhaha surrounding his accident (Sri A) and then the cloak and dagger drama of her passing. It’s too convenient that there were all these people that supposedly wanted her dead and that they pushed out SatPrem upon her demise and stole so many of the cassettes and the documents. I would never be surprised to find out that she herself had arranged it and told them which things to steal, which to keep secret, etc. Then there is the fact that she forced so many people to work at menial tasks for their whole lives after they surrendered to her. This is also what happened to me. What better way to keep people silent, and to keep them from discovering the real hidden agenda. And these were people who had very high educations and who had had a lot of money. There were reports that she took all the money and then didn’t even give the person a proper room to stay in. There is so much here. It all fits the profile of the usual suspects.

Now, there are a lot of people who have experienced things, things they cannot explain. This is where I was also a bit confused and then I came to be able to pull the whole thing together. Let the Lord judge me then. I feel that it is all faked, and I know how they did it.

I myself have had these experiences. I felt that I am somehow special. I heard the voices, and I felt the peace and the wonder. I never experienced a lot of thoughtless state. That much I will admit. But I have yet to speak to anyone who has experienced that. And I wonder if this even exists in our group anywhere. I had a few moments of it, but that is all. There were little things that happened and I think that these things could have been easily managed with the technology that is and has been available for years.

We are talking about people who control the largest military budgets in some of the largest and most powerful countries in the world. Why would they not have the power to fool us and fool with us?

Now, my own supposed teacher Sri A was associated with a few other teachers, and mainly he mentions Satya Sai Baba (the 2nd) and Sri Maharishi Mahesh Yogi. He tells particularly a lot of stories about the latter. But any of these stories can be fake. He doesn’t have to have told us the truth about this man, about his own self, or about anything. There is no corroboration here. He did says that he traveled the world over for this man and that he was the financial director for him, and he tells of the fabulous wealth that man possessed, of the truckloads of money that arrived every year on his birthday and of the gold crowns and the real estate and the sheer opulence available to the man, that he went to Africa for him and that he entered a country without a visa when it was at war. Supposedly he should not have come out alive, but miraculously his life had been spared. He is very big on telling of all these miraculous things, but again, where is the proof? He also said that he had taught TM for him at Buckingham Palace, and that he had met many many world leaders. He alludes to having met even her Majesty, the Queen. Now, why should he have access to all these people? That is not an accident. And I rather think that it is not a miracle either.

Beyond that there were these other “miracles” in that he knew who was going be president before they were elected. He told us that he had chosen for these men to take office because of certain characteristics that they had. And he also knew about 9/11 before it happened. The day before the attack he brought his group together and told them there was going to be a very severe attack. I was not there and I don’t know what he said, but he has made these types of predictions before. I also feel it is suspect that he so often tells his followers that this or that war is going to happen somewhere and that he is doing some sort of ceremony or some meditation with his followers and that it is their intervention alone that prevents these wars from becoming hot etc. I feel that he is just manipulating people into feeling that they are somehow special and powerful and making them feel that he has special powers. In fact, I believe he is simply a part of the cabal and that he has knowledge and so-called power only because of who he is connected to.

I believe that the PTB aka Illmnt are also present in India. B-wood is just as powerful and similarly influential in India as H-wood is in the States. The thing works the same way on both continents. If you view it like this it begins to make a lot more sense. Then in the case of Sinran, she is a Sikh. They are military, period. And was it not the Sikhs who supposedly assassinated Indira G? Are the Punjabis actually Indian? Or are they Aryan? And who else was interested in the “Aryan” race, who actually stem from Iran in fact? The whole thing is too convenient. There are too many connections and too many red flags. This is all theory, but the patterns are starting to pop out of the background and build a picture.

Now to the way they have been manipulating us: it is all MC (aka ultra). It started very long ago with the P-clip Projet. So Aryans are everywhere and we have no real idea as to the extent of the technology. I have read a book that was written in 2006, published then, which means it probably was written a year or more earlier than that. That is now 17 years hence. You can be sure that the technology that was being written about during that time was already well out-dated. What is possible today we can only guess at. Top military secrets rarely come out and when they do it might be up to 50 or 75 years before we know the extent of it, if we ever do.

I HAVE seen videos of conferences given to cadets at Wst Pnte by the head of Drpa. That was in 2018 and the catchphrase of the night was “the weaponization of consciousness”. The man spoke primarily of turning humans into machine like weapons. He said he could control people and make them do anything. Then he delineated several things he would like to do with weaponized humans.

I think that this is a pipe dream in a way. Though I suspect that the military have had some limited success, I think that they are still a ways away from truly breaking in and hacking the human spirit in the same way they might hack a monkey’s brain, I feel they still have not found a way to quash us fully. Just yesterday I was listening to a broadcast of one Japanese-American boomer professor who said that this is probably what they are after. They would ultimately like to fully colonize the human consciousness which would mean complete control. I am going to guess, and this is pure conjecture, that they have not been able to have control in the degree they would like, I mean the PTB.

How convenient then it is that M3TA (and I mean the Fartbuuk) now has asked people to put on these googlie goggs and go to church to pray or to meditate even. When the Z_ck announced the change of name recently, in the same breath he mentioned to people how much he wanted them to meditate in those goggles. And I found it quite odd that really just a few days later a friend of mine who loves to meditate was given a pair of those googs. I told her to throw them away. I even offered to smash them with a hammer for her.

Even before this happened I had figured out that there are certain people that they have not been able to “map”. The goal is to map all human consciousnesses. Each person’s consciousness needs to be mapped out, but there are some people they are not able to quite map. There is this thing called the human genome. That, I believe is old old old technology. I feel like they did that soooo long ago and that now they are trying to map the brain signatures. Brain signatures are like DNA signatures in that way that each person has a unique signal that their brain puts out. The human body is electrical, functions on the base of electricity and magnetics. Now, towards the end of trying to find the unique electro-magnetic signature of each individual there is this project. For many years they were testing this mapping process on certain targeted individuals, or TIs. Now, it has come down to getting everyone into the computer. Somewhere there is a huge processor that is going to contain eventually a “copy” of each person, all their data, likes and dislikes and this will be used to “project and predict” all the doings of the individuals on the planet. This is what I have heard. People will say, again, that this is not possible, that our technology is not that far along yet. But I say, I don’t care. I believe that this is the goal. I have found too many references to it in just my cursory surfing of the net. And if I found it that way, this means that the PTB have leaked it out into the general “main” stream, which means it is either close to completion, or… I mean, it’s something they are trying to do, but there are certain key elements missing for them.

They tried to destroy Christianity in the West, so I had heard. They wanted to replace it with atheism. When this did not quite work, they had a backup plan, and that involved starting a new religion, which was this New-Ageism. Esoteric thought, meditation, yoga, all this. And hence, the thousands of fake gurus. When I went to India and found my guru I never suspected that there could be people who would be in it for the long haul, who would be willing to play a role for their entire life, to deceive people. But what if there were people who were invested in it, because they “KNEW THEIR LINEAGE”? Then I got the clue the other day. I saw a video of a man who was speaking maybe 20 or 30 years ago. He said that the occultists had the ability to split their personalities and control them at will. Not the schizoid patients described in psyop thrillers like “Sybille”, who were basically just a mess of random quirky impulsivity living in a single body with no focus of attention and no conscious will or mission.

They are trained, in contrast to this, to be able to split off their consciousness into different areas and compartmentalize their thoughts and actions in an organized and intended way. The man in the video said that this was necessary for them in order to behave like nice, friendly, loving and law abiding Christians one moment and then perform a human sacrifice or some other wildly demonic depravity in the next. That make perfect sense. I reiterate and re-emphasize, that the two things that normal people are never able to understand are psychopathy and machiavelianism. This idea fits here perfectly. To be able to split off the consciousness and behave and even believe yourself to be one person in one moment and then behave and think as a totally other type of person in another instance; that is their power which they have apparently curated over the centuries. Hence, they hide right in plain sight. We never know who they are in truth. We think they are a “good” person, a normal person, someone interested in humanity and furthering “good” causes. But that is only a facade. That is what they want us to think of them. The rest, what is underneath, behind the facade, remains very carefully hidden from view.

This whole thing came into mind; it all happened in my heart after I found out that my family was not what it seemed. It was because I suddenly began to actually trust my feelings. That is not to say that this was an easy process to go through. I went through several weeks of feeling absolutely crushed to powder. Every few days there was some new revelation and I had to reassess my reality from the ground up. I was convinced, for one thing, that I had been part of a MC (aka ultra) experiment. That was something I had had to swallow, and it was not a small feat. Then, as things seemed to open up even more, it even seemed to me that we had been all experimented on as a family unit. And then add to this the fact that the Barbours/Stones were a part of our group with Swami A. And George, who declared years ago, on one visit to the ashram that “He’s playing with us all, just as if we were RATS! RATS! RATS!” Then he lifted up his pillow and three rats fled the room. This is the legend, a story I heard of George. I don’t remember, it was probably Scottie who told it.

Does it not say, “ye shall know them by their fruits?” Well, the only fruit so far in this particular movement has been this one Sinran, and this other Scottie. These are the two gurus that have been produced so far in this lineage, and I suspect very much that they are both frauds and are interested only in money. And as for the other followers of my so-called g_ru, I don’t see anyone in these groups who has even a faint clue of what is really going on, much less that they could be considered enlightened, free, or perhaps even spiritually awakened souls. They all want to think that this is what they are, and the *gur_* reinforces this wishful thinking every chance he gets, but they are not yet “all that”. Not by far.

So, what I think happened is that this Mother of P and this Sri A Ghose were both, highly possibly, frauds, and that they developed a re=litigion that was primarily targeted to the West and assimilated by Westerners. I doubt if Sri A developed any original thought at all, if he ever truly existed. And I doubt very much if Savitri has any other meaning than perhaps to lead the reader down a path to confusion and hell. It’s all about this idea of continuing human evolution and the desire people have of possessing a higher and more powerful consciousness. And to live forever. That’s the extent of it. Who would not pay for that? They are all in the same camp, to my way of thinking, these quasi-re-litigious leaders and the PTB.

As to my own *gu+u*, I have read his books and listened to his talks hundreds of times including hearing his talks in person many many many times and I can tell you, it’s incomprehensible. You cannot understand a bit of it. Not one bit, not an iota. And he says over and over to us, “I am not targeting your M+nd!” It’s really a subtle putdown. He is literally saying to us in fact that, your mind is too slow, you are too dumb, you can’t *get* it. Well, what was it that my dear mother had said about telling lies? I listened and read and looked and listened again during all these years, and I only ever felt confused, totally confused. And was consequently made to feel that this was MY OWN FAULT, right? In 23 years, I swear to you, this man has never said anything to me that he has not then later contradicted or refuted eventually. He has said everything, that I will be rich, that I will be poor, that I am his greatest devotee, that I will become his staunchest enemy, and on and on. He says something and then he covers his bases and says the opposite. How convenient. Then he can say that he predicted it, whatever may happen. These people are slick as eels, two-faced and forked-tongued. Fake fake fake as a three dollar bill.

I remember our Swami A saying that past 2025 we should be good. But I can see that according to what is going on right now, probably we will either be enslaved or destroyed entirely, if they get what they want. It seems to me that the goal has always been to keep people blissfully asleep for all these years and not have anyone speak up or use their god-given intelligence to uncover the swindle. Sri A, the “Swami”, professes to say that we should always retain our common sense, but then he is taunting us and making fun of us, saying that we don’t even know our origins or where we came from. I think it’s a kind of sport for them. I can’t imagine what they think in private. We have been colonized on the one hand by these Indian gu)us in our consciousness and on the other hand by the chings in our economy. There is only one thing left: to invade our mainland; and this has been done already in that many many have come from far off lands to purchase our properties and run businesses here. We have allowed it because we were taught that if we ever feel suspicious of a foreign person, it is only because we are racist. Racist, the new buzzword for “bad”.

There is so so so much more I could say to this. I will try to fill in the blanks as I go. Suffice it to say, that MC (aka ultra) has already been accomplished, and it is a fully wireless technology. The VofG weapon is already in place. It is being run independent of the original H._.R.R.P facilities, since these have become outdated and useless to them. Now, the machines are transported on boats to the points on the earth where they are needed. The original problem was that they could not effect the transfer of thoughts to the targets during the night, being that the iones9here was not available after sundown, but now through these mobile ionesp_eric heaters, they have been able to effect this and it means that they can also control dreams now and have practically 24 hour access to the minds of the ta_gets.

I have noticed a difference however in these dream states. I am thinking that they differ from natural dream states in their makeup. I think it possible that many ta+gets may not experience natural dream states for perhaps long stretches of time. I experience something when I dream that often tips me off to the possibility that the dream may indeed be faked. That is, I will wake up ever so briefly before I have a *dream* and I will hear a “thought” introducing the dream and then I will fall into sleep and immediately dream that thing. I find that this is fake, not the way dreams should originate if they are natural.

I experienced plenty of these so-called spiritual experiences, but I have heard enough first person reports of experiencing technologically transferred thoughts that come from outside the person in question. While I was in ashram I was able to “hear” foreign entities “thinking” in my mind. And there was plenty of manipulation and crazy-making that went on in order to produce episodes that would later serve to blackmail or isolate me from the others. These others in the ashram were also manipulated and “saw” and heard things that didn’t actually happen at all. We were all made crazy and I believe these incidents were produced through very advanced technology. That was starting in 1999, but that certainly existed by then, I suspect it even existed as early as the 80s or earlier than that. I certainly had been experiencing these phenomena for at least that long.

A detailed report of the workings of this technology is found in R.D.s book, Decyph… tne Mrx. That was written very long ago and we have to project forward quite a bit in order to guess what they are actually doing right now, and to guess at the possible capabilities of today’s McMachines. I will call them that. Just take the Mc part, the first two letters and fill it in.

Indeed this was the original reason I had gone to India. I was trying to find out what it was that was affecting me mentally. I knew that there was something unnatural afoot. I knew that I was not nuts, but that there were very unnatural things going on inside my head that did not make sense, and did NOT originate there. It became clearer to me with time. This was all BS, but it was not me who was producing it. I have to also mention here that the goal of the handlers, as I will call them, is to burden the target with certain blackmailable attributes. In other words, they make you cr@zy enough to do something, something dumb, stupid, illegal or otherwise detrimental to your reputation. They can then use this later to say that, Oh, this poor poor misguided individual, tsk tsk, they couldn’t help it, but they were batshit cr_zy.

Finally when I read RD’s book on the decyphering of the Mtrx, that is when I was able to put it all together and understand the manipulation. People THINK that they are having a spiritual experience, but this experience is most certainly faked. It does not consist of the proper nuances and it does NOT BEAR THE PROPER FRUIT in order to be considered a true spiritual awakening. The true spiritual experience would immediately result in humility, love, peace, caring, forbearance, equanimity, etc. These experiences don’t often produce that sort of lasting result in the person who is having them. It rather produces a lot of pride and haughtiness if anything at all. In any case, the experience very often fades away and is temporarily or permanently forgotten, leaving little effect. If it had been a bona fide spiritual event, it would have left a lasting positive impression. Otherwise, what is the point?

Hence, even if you wish to contend that your experiences can only be explained by stating that something spiritual happened and it was this or that person or incidence that was the precursor or the cause, you still have not explained to me why you don’t bear the fruit!

We read in the Bible of those disciples who did miracles, but then Jesus had said that there would be those who come to him in the end and say, “did we not prophesy in thy name, did we not perform miracles in thy name? And he will say, get ye away from me, I never knew thee!” I say to you, these miracles can be performed through technology. Read the book I have mentioned. Search the web. When you get some of the terminology down you will know what to look for. The math is in the book. It’s easy for them. They have now and have always had the largest budgets in the world. They are the gooks. They started mapping the brain as early as the 40s. They spend many times the GDP of all civilized countries combined every year. Why would they not be able to do this by now? Why should this be such a shocking idea? And why should anyone who believes this be considered a kook? Why so much talk of nut-cases and marginalization of people who believe in a conspiracy? (theory). There has always only been collusion everywhere in high positions. It has been proven time and time again. Why should they tell us what they are doing? Give me one good reason! You are cr@zy, YOU, IF YOU THINK THAT THEY SHOULD. If I were like that, if that were my thought process, I would never reveal it. That would not bring me one advantage. It would only bring disadvantages.

And yet, they do reveal these things bit by bit, but on their own schedule and according to their own devices. But that is a theme for another post. For now, good night. Sleep tight, and know that it is very possible that you can’t believe your dreams either. Now you cannot even trust your own thoughts. The McMachines have been running a long time. I will go into this in a later post. Even if you believe that I have no idea and am completely full of it, you cannot tell me that you seriously believe that the media do not influence us every day and in every way that they possibly can! You can’t possibly believe that, if you are a realistic person. Get real! Hence, if the media are influencing you every minute of the day, the burden of proof is upon you to show to me and to yourself that you are NOT dreaming, not asleep, that you are awake! Go ahead, I dare you! Prove it.

NOTE TO THE READER: I have to constantly, while I am writing these ideas down, become an apologist for this one idea, that the PTB see us as amoeba, cattle, animals, their possessions… that they do not consider us as having these “unalienable God given rights” that we have written into our American Constitution. Just now I was tired. I had worked all day to record this. Then I woke up to a feeling of “getting it” again. This goes very deep. This all had to do with something I will discuss at a later time. I just have to emphasize, this report is certainly full of mistakes or ideas that I might have, theories that might lead to dead ends. I don’t care. We will clean it up later. I really feel that I am on to something. Our brains, in their normal, untampered with state, function like detectives, putting things together. You have to focus the attention in an area where you are not used to focusing.

If you stare at this picture long enough, and try to just cross your eyes slightly or try to look in front of the picture instead of directly at it, you will see a new perspective. Try to look in the middle of the space between you and your laptop. You will see the picture in 3D mode. This is an example of how the brain works to “put the picture together” for you. Just an example.

My friend said she thinks that the internet was not a good idea. But I think that it was. Either way, we have to deal with it. It’s just that now people can talk to each other anywhere in the world. The technology exists and someone will always find a way to share something, even if it is not “mainstream”, even if it is not supposed to come out. As humans, we just love the truth too much. We ARE the truth. That is our nature, the nature of our very being. It cannot remain hidden for long. The truth WILL out and people will somehow always find a way.

It used to be that in order to publish something you had to know someone. Right now, you just have to press a button and upload it. There are too too many of us now. It’s going to flood in, everyone is going to suddenly get it. They cannot stop this. They are trying, but it will take on tidal wave proportions very soon. The truth is a force; it cannot be stopped, because at the end of the day, as it says in the Bhagavad Gita, everything is truth, everything is made up of truth. There is no way that it will not come out.

Much love to all.